Germs, D's bday and B first day of therapy

Once again, I planned to write a couple days ago on D's birthday but instead, the kids were sick and I was busy. I can't believe D has now been sick two years in a row for her birthday. What a bummer. B started with it last week. He was so cranky for about 5 days. We thought it was separation anxiety. But I think he was fighting the same crap D has had. We went to the Santa Ana Zoo with the Newmans on Saturday and at lunch she told me her head hurt. I freaked out. I was convinced she was going to throw up in the car on the way home. All I could think was being pulled over on the side of the 5 freeway in Commerce or something. Fortunately, she didn't and we made it home. But she's been fighting a low grade temp for a few days now. We went to the doctor for her 4 year "well" visit yesterday and he said they just have a cold virus of some kind but it's not the flu. I will get back to D's birthday but the best part of the doctor's visit was him testing her knowledge of colors. He showed her the percentile chart on the computer and the "rainbow" of colors. He said "what color is this?" while pointing to red and she said "red." Then he pointed to purple and she said "indigo." He laughed and said "I think I'm done here." I guess she knows her colors! Actually he was pretty impressed with her in general. When she balanced on one foot, he asked if she was in any classes. She was measured in the 90th percentile for height and 95th for weight. Her eyes are perfect and everything else was fine. Just this darn virus that doesn't want to leave her alone!

So we went to the Santa Ana Zoo with Mark, Wendie and Rachel. Fortunately, D felt fine while we were there. She ran around and had a blast. David and B stayed home because B was sick. I was so bummed we couldn't be a family but on the flip side, B would have made us crazy and we wouldn't have been able to focus on D. And I've been such a stress case with B and him being so attached, it was just better this way. The zoo was pretty cool. The perfect size for a 4 year old. D, Rachel and I rode an elephant! It was fun. We went to Ruby's for lunch. That's when things went south. She wasn't hungry and we kind of ran out on them. Bummer. Sunday she was a bit better but not great. We were really hoping she would wake up fine to go to school since I was bringing snack but she wasn't 100% and we didn't want to chance it. So, we celebrated with a chocolate muffin and a candle for breakfast, streamers and a party hat and Brooke the babysitter to help me out while David worked. Grammie and Grandpa came over later in the day but by then, D had fizzled and was running a temp again so it was not fun. We didn't even do cake with them. We had it on Tuesday. Turns out Grandpa is sick too. Either he gave it to B originally or the other way around. I thought we were out of the woods with the temp because D went about 36 hours without one until this morning it came back. This is really going on too long!! She had to stay home from school again. Made the day interesting because it was B's first day of child development therapy.

So B's child development therapy started today. His therapist, Stephanie, goes by "NeNe" because she said Stephanie is so hard for kids to say. She reminds me a lot of Lacresha. And I think B saw that too because he took to her pretty quickly. Today was really an introductory thing. But she did get him to say "baba" for "mama" which of course brought me to tears because it's something I couldn't do. I think he can do more than we realize, he just needs help to bring it out. Actually, I think we need help to get it out. But she was great. I already have some new tips and she said to call or text her anytime if we need help. The only down side is that she is pregnant and due in April. I'm just hoping she's not out too long because I don't want there to be an issue with a new therapist and all that. But for all I know, maybe we'll be in a totally different place by then. We start speech on Friday. I am really looking forward to that to know if we actually have an issue or if we just have a lazy boy who lets his sister speak for him!

Tomorrow I start with a new therapist for myself. I'm really hoping I like her. I hate the process of finding new therapists. I need help though. All of the stress and anxiety over the kids is making me sick. I have lost weight, I'm depressed...it's just not healthy. And the panic attacks are the worst part. I miss my friends and I feel very isolated. With all of B's therapies, I'm afraid I'm going to start missing out on playdates and other things. I hope not. I guess we'll see. I really need to find a new babysitter too. So many thing to do. Right now, I just want my kids to sleep and I need to do Dec. Snapfish. It's time for hot chocolate first.